Yesterday I was at a pub for lunch after my boyfriends softball game, when I asked a friend how an acquaintance of mine (good friend of hers) was feeling during her pregnancy. She said very matter of factly "she aborted it but is telling people it was a miscarriage."
When I heard her say that (almost felt like slow motion) my heart felt like someone hit it with a baseball bat. Here was a woman, around 26, who decided to abort. Intitially, I was angry and in pain, but today, I try and imagine what she was thinking and feeling on her way to the clinic, what was so bad or big that it trumped the life of her unborn child. What the hell was so damn important that it took precidence over a life.
Look, Im human and I know that it is virtually a cake walk to comment on a situation you have NEVER been in, but because this issue is so important to me, and is something I have prayed and thought about for years, I sincerely believe that there is no way I would ever consider aborting my child should I have an unplanned pregnancy. I just dont get, and perhaps this is one of my biggest faults, but I just dont understand how a woman (especially with her innate maternal instinct somewhere within her) could choose to terminate her child.
Again, as a human being with anger banging at my heart, I want to judge her, maybe even scream at her, but as a Christian, I know in my heart that my job as a witness is to pray, be active on the issue however I can, and to help this never happen again.
But doesnt anyone else, feel the sense of urgency and anger, and hostility towards those who choose to abort?
Please, someone tell me Im not the only one.....
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Please don't feel alone. This winter, while I was participating in a The Truth Project small group study, the subject of abortion came up in a discussion afterward, and a young man I would have pegged as solidly pro-life (he's a well-versed young man who usually thinks things through) spouted the 'I personally oppose abortion except in cases of rape or incest or to protect the life of the mother' line. And I felt like I'd been hit. I managed to maintain my cool and go back the next week with printouts of Cardinal Egan's wonderful "Just Look" article http://www.cny.org/archive/eg/eg102308.htm, but I'm not sure how much good it did. It was hard to deal with, and that wasn't even with abortion itself, just a careless way of thinking about it (that, as it happens, leaves the door wide open for needless, unjustified slaughter).
ReplyDeleteI've taken the liberty of adding this blog to the http://ladiesforlife.wordpress.com/ blogroll. Since you aren't quite as restrained in your language or your anger as most of the ladies who have signed up, you're in the "Friends" list for now. Thank you for standing up for those who are so coldly culled these days. I appreciate it.